Marshanda Ungkap Penyesalan Kehilangan Putrinya, Postingannya Bikin Nangis

TRIBUNPEKANBARU.COM - Ditengah gencarnya mempromosikan film terbaru mereka yang berjudul The Secret Urban Legend Suster Ngesot bersama pasangan Raffi Ahmad dan Nagita Slavita, Marshanda tampaknya tengah dirundung kegalauan.

Melalui unggahan di akun Instagramnya, Caca sapaan akran Marshanda mengunggah foto bersama sang anak Sienna Kasyafani.

Unggahan foto itu disertai dengan keterangan bagaimana kesedihannya karena tidak bisa tinggal bersama anak perempuannya itu.

Dilansir Tribunpekanbaru.com dari akun Instagram Caca, unggahan itu dibagi menjadi dua bagian.

Ia mengungkapkan tak bisa tinggal bersama sang buah hati karena penyakit mental yang ia alami sejak beberapa tahun yang lalu.

Caca mengaku sangat kehilangan putrinya itu.

Baca: Unggah Foto di Pinggir Kolam Pakai Gaun Seksi, Marshanda Dibilang Mirip Mendiang Artis Ini

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Baca: Cerita Ben Kasyafani Kagok Jalan Bareng Istri dan Marshanda

Sebelum menikah dengan Ben Kasyafani Caca dikabarkan menderita penyakit kejiwaan bipolar disorder.

Penyakit itu mulai dialami Caca pada tahun 2009 dan sempat membuat publik heboh.

Hubungan cinta Caca dan Ben berlabuh di pelaminan pada, 2 April 2011.

Dari pernikahan tersebut mereka dikaruniai seorang putri yang diberi nama Sienna Ameera Kasyafani.

Namun keduanya akhirnya resmi bercerai pada 25 November 2014.

Tahun 2016, Ben kemudian menikah dengan Nesyana Ayu Nabila.

Putri mereka pun tinggal bersama Ben dan istri barunya tersebut.

Part 1 of 1-
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What can I do
I am guilty
Of losing you.
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What can i do
I am guilty
Not blaming my illness but that is my weakness.
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I got lost.
And nobody wins when they tried to save me from falling.
I had to fall. Says God.
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And until today I cant see why I had to.
Cause it got me losing you.
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I am guilty and I am ashamed.
People talk about me behind my back.
Saying I can’t bear sanity.
I can’t bear life.
Because I am ill.
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And now what should I do.
When all I can think about is the thought of losing you.
My daughter.
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And I miss you, everyday.
And I cry for you, everyday.
I am lost. And in this case I am lost forever.
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I can only hope and pray for miracle.
I dont even believe that I still deserve the feeling of hope.
I’ve made too big of a mistake.
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I am left with questions and tears.
I saw people around me.
Being allowed to be with their children.
Pushing me far away from the right self-concept I am supposed to have about myself.
Pushing me far away from seeing myself as a capable human being. Capable of being a mother.
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I have lost.
I’ve lost you and I lost everything.
And I‘ve forgotten how to have hope.
Tried to understand this chapter of life.
And I can’t understand a thing.
The inner wisdom I usually find in me, is in silence.
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God help me.
I am lost.
I am ashamed.
What are You trying to tell me?
I am lost.
And everybody talks behind my back.
About how it is normal for me to lose.
How it makes sense.
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So I just try to bear with the thought of living with my worst self.
The incapable human. The inadequate parent. The one nobody can trust.
And carry on.
And carry on.
And carry on.
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#motivation #honesty #vulnerabilityispower #vulnerabilityisstrength #positivity
#empowerment #marshedpoem #marshedQuote
#enlightenement
#motivationandpositivity
#innerstrength #innerpeace
#intellectualhearts

Part 2 of 2-
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The caption on my last post (right before this one), is not shared only because I miss my daughter who doesn’t live with me since my divorce three years ago. But I also want to share a writing that‘s written with honesty dan vulnerability.
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I posted it not only to share my honest expression, but also with a genuine hope that some of you will feel relieved and inspired, karena tau bahwa ada orang lain diluar sana yang juga struggle karena akibat-akibat dari memiliki mental illness.
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Hope some of you can relate to this and give others like us some strength, empowerment, and love. Apapun masalah yg teman-teman sedang hadapi in life, I hope you realize that we can fall down and cry. But, we have the strength to get up and fight again to have happiness and love again in our lives. Find the way.. dont stop fighting, and carry on. No matter how hard it is. Carry on.
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#VulnerabilityTakesCourage
#VulnerabilityAddsStrentghWhenAcknowledged
#IfYoureStrugglingYoureNotAlone
#CarryOn
#YouMayFallButYouHaveToGetBackUpAgain
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#motivation #honesty #vulnerabilityispower #vulnerabilityisstrength #positivity
#empowerment #marshedpoem #marshedQuote
#enlightenement
#motivationandpositivity
#innerstrength #innerpeace
#intellectualhearts

Unggahan ini pun mendapat banyak respon dari warganet. 

janetsuteja Ya Allah .. aku baca ini sampe ngeluarin air mata .. yang sabar ya kaa

kusnulssundari Sedih baca nya ampe mata meleleh.... Gk bs byngin gmn jd km, krn aku jg seorang ibu. Yg syg n gk bsa jauh dr ankku....bahkn ningglin cm bbrp jm aja udh kgn. Smga Allah mnyatukan kalian @marshanda99 Amin

ndajhie Semangat ya kak..semua yg terjadi didalam kehidupan kita itu sudah yg paling terbaik menurut Allah SWT,meski terasa sedih tp akan selalu ada hikmah dibalik semuanya..

muthiadinni Jadi caca pasti ga mudah, bisa ngerasain sakitnya, sedihnya caca dari yg caca tulis. Semoga Allah kasih petunjuk ya ca... tapi petunjuk akan datang kl caca mendekat. Setiap orang punya kesalahan, pernah tersesat... tetapi hidup kan memang proses jatuh bangkit, tersesat dan kembali... :) selalu kuat, semoga Allah menguatkanmu... amin...

aprilia_rm Keep strong mbak caca, sienna tetap mengenal mbak sebagai ibunya. Tegakkan kepala, berusaha memperbaiki semuanya dg kerja keras lillahita'ala. InshAllah hasil tak akan menghianati usaha.